So Ben is out of town for three weeks (one week down, two to go), he left to Ft. Leonard Wood with the Army and me and Z are alone for awhile… It’s pretty interesting, I’ve found out how much I really depend on my husband for things- simple things- like housework, or just a free minute! I’m just so thankful to have him, him being away really makes me realize what a blessing he is! We’ve been talking every day, and most of the time our conversations consist of updates and what our days have looked like, but a few times we just get into these amazing conversations about Jesus, the age to come, and the great tribulation. I think one of the reasons we have been spending so much time talking about this is that we take for granted the time we spend together here (not all the time, but some of it), and don’t really spend as much quality time together as we should. I’m thinking of making this one of our nightly things… after Zuriah goes to bed to put away the computer, no sewing, no going to bed early, but to instead just talk to each other about JESUS! It’s been really great and I so enjoy it!
So what I’ve really been stirred about tonight is the realm of miracles, signs and wonders, GOD and how big He really is… the vastness to who He is, what He’s CAPABLE of. My prayer has been for God to destroy the box I have Him in every day, and it’s really been happening. Almost every day my spirit is awakened to new possibilities with the Lord. *Warning… content may be mind blowing* 
But seriously… we need this!! Traveling in the spirit- my friends told me of a missionary who went to the airport without a plane ticket. He was praying the Lord would provide his way. He went into the bathroom in one country and came out in another!!! What is that!? Ben and I were talking about the charibim in Ezekiel and the Lord’s chariot… if you read it closely the charabim are pulling the Lord’s chariot like horses. How sweet would that be to be transported in a heavenly chariot?! Seriously… I want that. I want to see Heaven opened before my eyes! The other night I was praying for God to open my eyes. I wanted to see His face! To see angels, heaven! Then all of a sudden lighting flashed flashed flashed flashed really quickly and it frightened me. It was as if God was saying ‘really? you really want that?’ I shuddered- YES!!! I still do!!! OH to see His glory!!! JESUS! I’m wondering what is possible, what we haven’t touched. The ‘Greater things’ that haven’t been seen yet. I want to experience this. I want Him to use me. I think it would be sweet to have an ‘invisible anointing’- although that’s been done before Still. I was ‘birthed’ into the supernatural when I was saved in 2004- I’ve never been ok with the church being done with the gifts (so bogus). But I think since I was really brought up into this that there is a special sort of desire or gifting of the supernatural that the Lord has given me. I really want more. If it’s true that He’s going to release it (and of course it’s true), then I want to be there when He does! I want to be ready for it!
My spirit is LONGING for His coming. I want to physically be on the earth when He comes on the clouds (Ben was saying part of him wants to experience the current Heaven before- which would take him dying on this side of eternity and then would come with Jesus when He returns) I guess both would be fine (wow that was probably the understatement of all time), but for real to see Him coming on the clouds- and standing next to people who physically die from FEAR. I was telling Ben that there can only be two reactions on that day. Either the most painful agony and fear ever experienced or the most joy and excitement ever experienced. For real! It will be the worst day or the best day. Wow to see it. He’s really coming back, but this time as judge. Oh Jesus to see you! He’s really alive!! I was thinking about that the other day as well- Jesus is REAL. He’s REALLY a man. That’s another topic for another day. In the mean time I’m going to search God out. One more thing… I really want God to show me outer space (is that nerdy? I don’t care that would be amazingly sweet). Supernovas, stars, galaxies, things we haven’t discovered yet- things we’ll NEVER discover!! Ooohh… fun. God take me there!!
