Life as Esther

My Life, Studies, and Thoughts

I Now Understand… September 12, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — kellyvarner @ 10:25 am

Our faith has been tested the last few weeks, in the area of finances, probably more than it ever has! The other day we had $2 and no way to buy gas. The Lord provided after we cried out for His provision. The next day Zuriah needed diapers- she was wearing her last one! Again the Lord provided. It’s been so hard though! He has been refining us. We are at this point where we are believing the promises we have even when they look SO far away!! We have been having prophetic words that this year would be a year of abundance, that someday soon we will have more money than we know what to do with- that the Lord will use us in order to funnel money into the Kingdom! Kind of a funny thought at this point! (We could maybe spare a penny…)

I knew pretty much right after I started my business that the Lord would bless it. That He would increase it, but here I am with ideas but nothing extravagantly original- something I feel I need in order to stand out from competition and actually make a dent in the industry. But at the same time I knew the Lord would take it- and then He gave me an idea. Something that is different than ALL other businesses, something that the Lord is SURE to bless! I NOW understand how the Lord can release literally MILLIONS through me to benefit the Kingdom! It was just a matter of time… waiting and waiting, believing that He is faithful!

I am also understanding now why the Lord has brought us through so much financial trial- almost two years of not even living pay check to paycheck- more like living month to month with no means at all besides the Lord!! It has been more than just hard financially because it’s put a strain on so many relationships and situations, but the Lord has groomed us. He has prepared us for when He releases millions our hearts will be ready. I say that and tremble… oh God let our hearts be ready!

Unfortunately I’m not going to share the idea on here… but I will say that it DIRECTLY effects orphans and victims of human trafficking GREATLY. It will be out eventually, but I have a lot of thinking/praying to do before it is fully developed. We still only have $7 in our bank account at this moment, and many bills to pay this month… if you feel led to give to us at this crucial time we would be so blessed.

Please pray for me on the following points:

*Protection from the enemy. The idea is something that he will not like AT ALL
*The continuation of new and fresh ideas
*The continual providing of the Lord for all the business needs- financial and networking

 

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